probably i’m wrong but it seems like human these days are just too obsess over the earnings than getting the foundation right. i dont know or probably it’s just me having the “old fashion” thoughts. however, i just believe in some ways without a strong foundation you just won’t be able to venture as far as what you had in mind? there will ought to be a day when whatever you could just remain stagnant because you only think about the future without any substances? 

we shall see how things will go then..

I just need an outlet for me to whine. This week was by the far the worse time since i started working. Overloaded from monday all the way to friday, weekend wasn’t spared too. Software expired and the old cheat way dont work anymore. Now, finding all way to get it so that i can complete all the work that are all due on monday morning. It’s annoying, fucking annoying because design no longer use to be the way when i just started. What’s so fantastic about being a designer as a full-time job?

we no longer get to do things that we like, just it’s all about listening to the brief, the AE agree with the client and give bullshit brief and thinks that everything  was all that easy to be done. It’s all about finger pointing game, “I already said”, “I already told them”, “I want it to now”. All these just slowly eats up the passion that used to there. I just detest to do anymore illustration over the weekend, it’s just a mental torture to even think/talk about anything about design over the weekend/ break. 

it’s not about being tough but i’m just getting really lost whether this is what i want. I know no matter where we go, the same thing will surface again. However, i just wonder whether one fine day that passion will cease off completely and i don’t wish such day come by. It’s just to upsetting to think about it.

Sometimes, when we look back things was much better in the past. However, i’m thankful that everyone in the family stay together as one under all the circumstances that we were put into over the years. I might not be who i’m now if it wasn’t the big changes over the years.

We lose some we gain some. Sometimes, i do ask why does all these happen to us but not some others. There’re so many people out there but why us over and over again. However, as the time goes by i realize instead of questioning we should learn to embrace it and learn to look forward. 

I learn to look up to my dad over the years and learn to respect my mom for the perseverance that she had over these few years. I guess, all these thoughts only come after all these obstacles. It’s a little too much for a lesson isn’t it? 

2013 hasn’t been too good but i’m going make it right. Set my mind and going to make my dream come true. It’s still a long time away but time flies isn’t it?

Merry Christmas

Since christmas last for 12 days, it was still a great christmas celebration with the polymates. Merry Christmas!

Before the new year arrive, i’m already looking into the second and third trip details. Work is too mundane, such things spice up our life a little more isn’t it? If only we have more leaves, it’ll be too good to be true.

It’s either die young or live longer and witness death. One of the best example of you can’t have the best of both. 

Every now and then, i’ll look through the calendar and can’t stop counting down the days for a getaway trip. It isn’t just like any simple getaway. It’s like you finally earn your own money, book your ticket, browse through for your favorite accommodation and lastly just keep working towards the day to arrive. It’s like your own personal getaway trip, it’s an amazing feeling. Even though it’s just somewhere not too far but it’s good enough to begin my solo traveling experience. Work hard and play hard, I haven’t gotten sick of the lifestyle and probably won’t trade for anything else for a life like this any time soon. 

Stereotype

You don’t have to agree on everything but at least learn to keep unnecessary  comments to yourself. You have the rights to be saint but it doesn’t mean that others ain’t as saint just because they aren’t living the way you do. You see it’s very simple, just behave like an adult and think like one.